From under a bridge
Setting:? I was brought up in an ultra-orthodox house. My mother passed away shortly after I turned six. My father would beat me, make me not eat supper, and molest me. All along not letting me have friends or any social life.
First drink:??? At about ten years old I discovered this ??miracle?? called alchohol. I have seen people drink and feel good so maybe it could help me. When the oportunity arose I snuck some alcohol from the cabinet.
Effect:??? I felt like nothing was wrong. I felt like life was perfect. I went to sleep, and woke up sick. It went unnoticed.
Developing stage:? After this I would drink when things got really bad, such as when I had a bone broken, etc.? Over the next half year I started drinking a few times a week. By my eleventh birthday I was drinking basically daily. About that Time I was introduced to my first joint, I liked it and by the next morning I was trying to get some more.
Behavior :???? During my time using I fought with almost everyone some verbally and some phiscally, I damaged and destroyed many peoples property. I stabed someone, I was a violent person. No one wanted to be around me.
Finding Help:?? I had many people telling me I had a Problem with alcohol and drugs. The more I was told I had an issue the more I convinced myself I could stop when I wanted. I tried switching what I would drink and what drug I would take, I tried giving myself time periods I could or could not drink and use, but to no avail.
Rock Bottom:? When I was In Yeshiva I had not been attending, Instead I was drinking and using, I would trying to stop my addiction on my own.? I woke up one day and had a moment of clarity. I realized if I keep doing what I am doing I will be dead in a short amount of time. I approached my principal and told him I have an issue with drinking and I think I need help. That evening I went to my first meeting.? I still could not get this Idea of staying sober, but I saw many people telling how they were?in the same place as me and today they are sober and happy for many years.?? I decided I will give it a try but I just couldn??t really get it. A few weeks later I was informed that it has been arranged for me to go to rehab in California. I went for a period of time of a little over a month.? I came out and went a to a sober living. I would go to meetings and got a sponsor. I relapsed a couple of times and I now have been able to stay sober for about 8 months in which time I have so many woderfull things I never could have had.
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