I was born on March 16th, 1991. and i was adopted 3 months later on June 6. I had a very normal childhood, except for being socially awkward. At age 13 ?I decided to experiment with alcohol and drank until i blacked out that night. The next morning i was frightened because i didnt remember what happened. So i didn't drink again for a while. At age 15 I started smoking the reefer, and instantly fell in love with it. I smoked weed as much as I could through out my whole high school career. At age 16-18 I started experimenting heavily with psychedelics, which then led to me experimenting with harder drugs from ages 19-21. I started getting into ecstacy, cocaine, synthetic meth, and heroin, which became my drug of choice. After about a year of Injecting raw heroin i decided ?enough was enough and thought that drinking would be a good substitute. without heroin in my system alcohol just became the filler of the void left behind from heroin use. My drinking was way out of control. I blacked out everytime i drank, and i was a very unpleasent person to be around while i was drunk. After months of blacking out drunk, and in and out of using heroin, i finally hit a bottom that led me into a 12 step recovery program. the first time i went thru this program, something clicked inside of me, and i knew, soberiety was something i want and desire. But, i relapsed after 58 days sober and went back out, using heroin again. after a month of heroin use, i returned to the same program and didnt stop getting high, just floated through it, got kicked out, and ended up moving out of town to live with family. I was still drinking but managed to quit using heroin. But the drinking kept getting worse. Eventually, i was arrested for drinking and driving, blowing a .241 almost blacked out after getting into a huge fight with somebody. I spent 2 days in jail, with nothing but jeans, my glasses, a hat and shoes (no socks) and 48 hours to think about my life. after getting out, i had to walk over 15 miles home and was dead set on killing myself. I had it all planned out and was ready to follow through. Then the miracle happend. My mother called to tell me she spoke with a guy at a ?different recovery program. i was skeptical, another recovery program, greeeat... then she called back saying i could get my job back after a couple months, and that a lot of people said all these nice things about me. I dont know what happend, but something inside of me said, ok, one more try, what do i have to lose? since then i struggled getting sober for about a month in the new program, but then i got it, completely let go and surrendered to a higher power, and have been sober ever since. I am 21 years old, with over 3 months sober. ? i aint what i could be, i aint what i should be, but thank god i aint what i used to be. I love you all