i was born to addict parents 17 years ago. my mother has been addicted to crystal meth for 22 years. my father used to be addicted to cocaine, opiates and is currently an alcoholic. my father has raised me since i was two and my mother has kind of been in and out of my life. i think what really started my addiction was when i got old enough to realize the drugs my mother was on and i remember thinking what could be so good about drugs that you could just abandon your child and from then out it has been hell. (my mom is currently 80 pounds 39 years old and lives in a small one person camper with no electricity).

i started smoking cigarettes and marijuana regularly at 12. i pretty much stuck with that for about a year. when i was 13 i started taking xanax drinking and doing cocaine. i would take so many xanax that i would black out and wake up in crazy places not knowing how i got there. at 14 i was doing xanax ,acid, ecstacy, cocaine and marijuana. i honestly dont remember alot of my 14th and 15th year. my whole world changed when i found out i was 11 weeks pregnant with my daughter. i straightened up completley and stopped everything but smoking cigarettes. after i had my daughter i was good for a little while until i started hanging out with my old friend i started crack/cocaine again then hydrocodone. still supporting my daughter and taking care of her alone.

my daughter is 16 months old and i have no idea who her dad is. at 16 i started using meth, just recently discovered i might be addicted. im now 17 and struggling with an addiction to sex and crystal meth. i dont have to have this drug but i think about it all the time. if you have never done meth then i am begging you please dont. it will grab hold of you so quickly and before you realize you have a problem you will have lost everything most important in your life it is a terrible road to travel down but im proud to say i still have my daughter and i have been clean for 17 days :) ive never been in any trouble with the cops or anything and im going to get out before i do. i plan to stay clean and continue to take care of my daughter and do what is right by her. thank you for reading my story.