In 2001 I had a horible bicycle accident that broke my neck. I was referred from doctor to doctor and would eventually have neck surgery. During all the surgeries I was prescribed narcotic pain medicine over and over. I wasn't filling my prescriptions at first until my wife scheduled an appointment with my doctor and complained to him that I wasn't getting better because I wasn't taking my medicine. The doctor told me that in order to get better to where I would move around I would need to take my prescription medicine. After that appointment I decided to take the medicine as prescribed and sure enough things did get better.

I begin to get up and get around but something still wasn't right. Begin to see specialist after specialist until a diagnosis was given. One day, one of the specialist doctors told me I had a nerve disease called RSD - Reflex Sympathetic dystrophy. My wife scheduled me to go see a pain management doctor Who started treating me for RSD?with more narcotic medicine, bigger dosages. And more frequent doses. And injections every 30 days. Eventually the doses were not enough. I begin to needing to take bigger dosages more frequently. It got to the point that the doctor started prescribing me large doses of morphine. The drugs begin to make me Reclusive and non social.

After about 4 years Of taking these drugs my marriage begins to suffer. My love life begins to fall apart And there wasn't anything I could do about it. I know my wife was highly disappointed But by then I was so convinced that I had to take these drugs in order to survive. Eventually my wife had an affair at her job And when I found out I was hurt beyond description. This put me in a deeper depression and I started taking even more drugs. Eventually my wife would leave me and file for divorce and then I started taking more drugs.

At the rate I was going I was taking almost 10x the amount of what the doctor prescribed me. After the divorce I kept taking a lot more drugs than what I was supposed to. Although I filled my prescriptions every month at the doctors, I would also purchase drugs off the street when I would run out. About 3 years after my divorce I finally had enough. 1 month I had asked my doctor if there was any alternative to the narcotic medication that he was prescribing me and his answer was no. Not satisfied with his answer I decided to make another appointment with another doctor. Again the other doctor prescribed me more narcotic medication. By then found 1 more doctor where I broke down and cried and told him off for what I had been through. Finally someone who listen to me. The new doctor prescribed me a prescription medication called suboxin. It helped me get through to the detox in the withdrawals.

It's been almost a year and I have been narcotic free and I couldn't be happier. I wish that I would have found this wonderful little drug years ago and maybe my marriage would have survived. I was in love with my wife to the very end and even after divorce. After my wife and I separated I never spoke to her again not even at the divorce. I was so ashamed I became reclusive. Now that I have been drug free for almost a year I feel as if I have my old self back. I know that I am the man that my wife fell in love with to begin with but it is far too late. It's now been over 4 years since our divorce and I still think about her daily. My life is moving on and I am beginning to date again. I know it's going to take some time but I know my life will get better because it already has since I stopped taking narcotic medications.

I just want to tell all those people who are addicted to narcotic pain medications that there is a solution and please please try it. The wonder drug is called suboxin. It is a film that goes underneath your tongue that you take 3 * a day or 4 * a day if you really need it. No matter how expensive it is it is worth it. They were months when my insurance would not pay for it and I figured out a way to come up with 400 dollars just to have it. Anything was worth the price of staying off narcotic medication.

I promise you that if you are addicted to hydrocodone or morphine you can get off Because I am living testimony to it. Suboxin is an amazing drug and I recommended to anyone who is addicted to narcotics medication. I still take it to this day because the truth is I believe that once you are addicted to narcotics medication you will always be addicted to narcotics medication and the only solution to being clean guaranteed is staying on suboxin As long as you think you need to and I still think I need to. What's most important is that I haven't taken a narcotic drug pill or anything for almost a year And I feel like I have my life back. Sadly enough it's too late because I cannot have everything that I had before I became addicted to narcotics medication. I no longer have the woman that I loved and the woman that I thought I would spend eternity with. But I do have my life and I am still healthy and I am still alive and I know that God has plans for me.

I consider myself a Christian man however I don't jump to Pierre lose but I do believe in God. Jeremiah 29:11 God knows the plans he has for me plans not to hire me plans to prosper me, Plans to give me hope and plans to give me a future. I do believe that God has plans for me. I may not spend the rest of my life with the woman I was madly in love with once upon a time but I know God will deliver me a Woman who will love me regardless. Thank you for reading my story and I hope it helps you make a decision to become drug free.