Hey guys i'm Meredith and im 18 years old. I have been clean off heroin for 5 months now.

I started smoking weed and drinking when i was 13, and even at that time in my life, i knew i was different. i knew i loved drugs more than any of my other friends. Weed & alcohol helped me be less shy in social situations since i always felt like the "ugly friend", and i had no limits. I would do what ever it would take to get weed.

Towards the beginning of sophomore year of high school i started using pills much more, mostly amphetamines and opiates. I was miserable, i wanted to die everyday and i self-injured a lot. I dealt with the problem of my sexuality when i dated my first girl in junior year, but nothing meant more to me than drugs. Things got bad , quick, i started getting kicked out of schools and going to adolescent rehabs and mental hospitals, all because of drugs.

I started heroin when i was 17 and it robbed me of everything good in life. i stole my parents credit cards and cash from their wallets. I didnt care, i just needed my fix. After a year of using heroin and going in and out of rehabs, i had eventually got so weak that i surrendered, THE CONSEQUENCES OF DRUG ADDICITION OUTWEIGH THE BENEFITS. I got myself into a 12 step program and went to rehab for a month.

Today i see that i can feel so sad, so tired, and so worn out, but i STILL DON'T HAVE TO USE. everything will be okay, and im no longer carrying around guilt for how i act. I do get urges, but they always pass. its not worth it anymore, and i hope you see that too

and remember: "This too shall pass..."