I never thought i would be telling the public the story of my life but i feel a stirring in my spirit to do so. I hope it can help someone else from making the same mistakes i did. I was 14 years old and looking for love in all the wrong places. I met this man one day at a beer store and i thought he was the answer to all my problems, boy was i wrong! I did'nt know he would be the one that introduced me to a life of living hell, to say the least. Before i ever left with him something told me not to go, it was a still small voice! But i did'nt listen! So, this is where it all began. I thought i was in love. I left home, moved in with him & quit school which was the biggest mistake i ever made.

Well, we all know how it starts out, he was perfect! He treated me like a queen. I thought he hung the moon untill he pulled out a needle one day & told me "this will make all your problems go away" - I fell for it !!!! He injected it in my arm & that was all it took, i was hooked! I wanted more, & more & more!!!! I would do so much i ran out of places to stick the needle. I was black & blue from needle sticks, i could'nt even bend my arms. I was in agonizing pain! I lost so much weight my clothes just fell off of me. I looked like death warmed over. I heard that 'Still small voice' again saying "get out of here, just stop and go home", but it was too late, i was out of control!!!! Then the beatings started. When we ran out he got angry & took it out on me.

I woke up one morning from about a 12 day run & looked at him beside me & i noticed his nose was bleeding so i tried to wake him up to tell him but he would'nt wake up, he was dead, the drugs blew his heart up, that's why his nose was bleeding, that's what i found out later on. I was 18 years old, no where to go, no one to turn to so what do i do? I fell into the arms of another man who was twice my age but he promised to take care of me so i moved in with him & we were married within 2 months. This time i was introduced to crack cocaine; my life took a turn for the worst. He put a pipe in my mouth & lit it...I haven't been the same since!!!!!

Make a long story short, i lost 2 children, went to prison 5 times. I've been raped, beaten & LEFT FOR DEAD BY PEOPLE I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS!!!! You have no friends out there in the drug scene. I learned that the hard way. I got to a point where i just wanted my life to end, untill i heard that still small voice again saying "come to me i love u & I can change you". I listened to that voice that day & I haven't been the same since. It was GOD all along trying to warn me.

I've been clean now for 1 year and 2 months only by the grace of GOD!!!!! GOD gives me the strength & the willpower i need to stay clean. I finally found the love & happiness i have alway's longed for. Thank you JESUS!!! If you hear that still small voice please listen to it, I pray you will!!!!!

From;"Still Small Voice"