I am an ex junkie and a mental patient of 35 years or more.

Last week I told my shrink that it was more like blackmale to take a shot of Haldol they have been giving me for the last 25 years noe.

Despite that he agreed and gave me the shot. I take four diabetes pills each day and a cholesterol pill a vitamin and keep notes on my blood count I also take a heavy inhaled steroid and smoke a lot of cigars in my retirement from the rat race.

I have not had a job in 10 years cause the medicines they have me on make it impossible to "lie" and say I was on vacation for two years or if I tell them I have schitzophrenia they will not keep me working for long at any job I can make a living at.

Despite the fact that I have not worked in 10 years I saved some money from disability and bought a house for my wife and I.

We dont drink and havent in 20 years now or used drugs for getting high in over 33 years now but I question my addictions recovery as changing seats on the Titanic or real recovery. Just to turn it over to God and pray for another day.



Best wishes Freddy