My son Billy died at the age of 23 years old on Feb.8, 2007. Billy was truly my best friend in the world.
My son really didn't mess with drugs, until he was about 13 or 14. He smoked a lot of pot for many years, then at the age of 18 he started selling drugs. He worked full-time as a chef, but sold drugs also to get more income. He was a father at the young age of 17, and worked hard, so his son Taylor could have a good life. Billy got busted for drugs, and his son was taken away for a small amount of time.
My son went to jail for 6 months, and our family thought for sure he was on the road to recovery. But, as soon as he was released from jail, the courts thought it would be in the best interest of Taylor, that my son not see hen for awhile. Billy started right back with the drugs again. He was using xanax and taking large amounts of oxycontin. He went to a doctor, and was given methadone to come down from the oxycontin. What a joke!!! He was then addicted to that as well as xanax, oxycontin, cocaine, etc. He called me one day right after Christmas, and said, "Mama..........I am done, I cant live this way anymore." So, we decided to move him out of South Fla. and up here to Tallahassee. We arranged everything and all were so excited. We spoke on Wednesday night, and he was coming up on Friday. But, I guess the Lord had other plans for my baby.
My oldest daughter came home from work very early, and she said, we needed to pray, and I just dropped to my knees, and starting screaming, no no no no Oh god no not my baby!!!!!!!!!!! I knew, without any words even being spoken. Billy died from an accidental overdose of oxys and methadone. It's been a year and a half, and our family is still crying. This was not suppose to happen to us.....we were such a loving and close family. Why, did we not help him more?
As Billy's mom I am never ever going to be the same. I still look around the room and wait for him to walk in the room, He was so full of life, and had a smile that was so great. He is missed so much by his family, and many friends he had. As a Christian I do know he is in a better place with our Heavenly Father, and we will meet again in our eternal home.
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