In memory of Billy Wilson
Created by Family Of Billy Wilson
Billy Wilson
My son Billy died at the age of 23 years old on Feb.8, 2007. Billy was truly my best friend in the world.
My son really didn't mess with drugs, until he was about 13 or 14. He smoked a lot of pot for many years, then at the age of 18 he started selling drugs. He worked full-time as a chef, but sold drugs also to get more income. He was a father at the young age of 17, and worked hard, so his son Taylor could have a good life. Billy got busted for drugs, and his son was taken away for a small amount of time.
My son went to jail for 6 months, and our family thought for sure he was on the road to recovery. But, as soon as he was released from jail, the courts thought it would be in the best interest of Taylor, that my son not see hen for awhile. Billy started right back with the drugs again. He was using xanax and taking large amounts of oxycontin. He went to a doctor, and was given methadone to come down from the oxycontin. What a joke!!! He was then addicted to that as well as xanax, oxycontin, cocaine, etc. He called me one day right after Christmas, and said, "Mama..........I am done, I cant live this way anymore." So, we decided to move him out of South Fla. and up here to Tallahassee. We arranged everything and all were so excited. We spoke on Wednesday night, and he was coming up on Friday. But, I guess the Lord had other plans for my baby.
My oldest daughter came home from work very early, and she said, we needed to pray, and I just dropped to my knees, and starting screaming, no no no no Oh god no not my baby!!!!!!!!!!! I knew, without any words even being spoken. Billy died from an accidental overdose of oxys and methadone. It's been a year and a half, and our family is still crying. This was not suppose to happen to us.....we were such a loving and close family. Why, did we not help him more?
As Billy's mom I am never ever going to be the same. I still look around the room and wait for him to walk in the room, He was so full of life, and had a smile that was so great. He is missed so much by his family, and many friends he had. As a Christian I do know he is in a better place with our Heavenly Father, and we will meet again in our eternal home.
My son really didn't mess with drugs, until he was about 13 or 14. He smoked a lot of pot for many years, then at the age of 18 he started selling drugs. He worked full-time as a chef, but sold drugs also to get more income. He was a father at the young age of 17, and worked hard, so his son Taylor could have a good life. Billy got busted for drugs, and his son was taken away for a small amount of time.
My son went to jail for 6 months, and our family thought for sure he was on the road to recovery. But, as soon as he was released from jail, the courts thought it would be in the best interest of Taylor, that my son not see hen for awhile. Billy started right back with the drugs again. He was using xanax and taking large amounts of oxycontin. He went to a doctor, and was given methadone to come down from the oxycontin. What a joke!!! He was then addicted to that as well as xanax, oxycontin, cocaine, etc. He called me one day right after Christmas, and said, "Mama..........I am done, I cant live this way anymore." So, we decided to move him out of South Fla. and up here to Tallahassee. We arranged everything and all were so excited. We spoke on Wednesday night, and he was coming up on Friday. But, I guess the Lord had other plans for my baby.
My oldest daughter came home from work very early, and she said, we needed to pray, and I just dropped to my knees, and starting screaming, no no no no Oh god no not my baby!!!!!!!!!!! I knew, without any words even being spoken. Billy died from an accidental overdose of oxys and methadone. It's been a year and a half, and our family is still crying. This was not suppose to happen to us.....we were such a loving and close family. Why, did we not help him more?
As Billy's mom I am never ever going to be the same. I still look around the room and wait for him to walk in the room, He was so full of life, and had a smile that was so great. He is missed so much by his family, and many friends he had. As a Christian I do know he is in a better place with our Heavenly Father, and we will meet again in our eternal home.
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Comments
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Julie
Julie
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.
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Jennifer Smith
Jennifer Smith
Hello Sunshine. Well, it is your 2nd year in heaven today. It is worse today than ever before.I went to church and thought it would help, but it didn't. I have a candle burning for you all day. Honey, I pray you hear our cries and see all the tears we are letting fall. We miss you so much, and this is so unbearable. Tomorrow will be better I am sure, we just have to go through the emotions today. I love you more than life son....
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Shirley Shubert
Shirley Shubert
Hello Jennifer, thank you so much for writing a tribute to my son Gregory Dooley. I'm still waiting for things to get just a little better. The irony is that I spent six years working as a counselor in an in-patient drug & alcohol treatment center. I left one year before my son died. I think I was trying to save just one child because I knew I could not save my own. I speak with the Philadelphia Police Deptartment's Scared Straight Program with hopes that one teen or parent will listen.
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Jennifer Smith
Jennifer Smith
Hi my love. It is almost your 2nd year anniversary and all the emotions are coming up again, and I miss you so much.I am trying so hard to be the survivor for you and keeping us together, but babyboy it is so hard sometimes. We all miss you so much still, and can't seem to get beyond this grief thing. If you can see us, please know how much you are truly are loved.
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Angela Gwynn Mother Of Dallas Nguyen
Angela Gwynn Mother Of Dallas Nguyen
Jennifer, just stopping by again to let you know I think of you and Billy often. We will always think about the sweet lives lost to us.
They will always be the lights in our minds, even though there will always be the sorrow there too.
I remember your life Billy.
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Sara Burket
Sara Burket
Hi Jennifer. I am very sorry about your son. It is not an easy thing by any means and everyone always wishes that they could have done more to help. Just know in your heart that you were trying to do right by him, and like you said, he is in a better place now and he is not sick anymore. Many prayers to you and your family.
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Elaine Davidsmama
Elaine Davidsmama
Dear Jennifer,
I'm here in Marianna reading your memorial to Billy & I want you to know how sorry I am. Two years ago my David died of Cocaine & Methadone right here in Marianna at the age of 24. I wasn't ready to give him back. I hope your life has known some peace since this tragedy. Please write myers55@embarqmail.com
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Jennifer Aaron Mason's Mom
Jennifer Aaron Mason's Mom
Thank you for your comment to my son's memorial. Its so sad to be without them and I know how much you hurt. I cry everyday...I dont know what to say to make you feel better- there are no words. Just remember we WILL see them again, thats the only thing that keeps me going. Thank God for the time we had and try to educate everyone you meet. I feel like I could have changed this had I only known what was going on. I dont understand why god is taking all these kids this way. God bless you.
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Jennifer Smith
Jennifer Smith
Hello my love, I finally got your memorial up today. I cried when I saw your prescious face. I miss you so much. I pray daily that you are finally at peace. I know we will see one another soon, and we will never ever be apart ever again. Until then, I am trying extremely hard to do as you always told me to do, "Breath easy Mama." It is so hard baby boy! I love you more than you will ever know.........
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Angela Gwynn Mother Of Dallas Nguyen
Angela Gwynn Mother Of Dallas Nguyen
Dear Jennifer, I am so deeply sorry you have lost Billy. He's beautiful Jennifer. Just beautiful. I know the pain in your heart, it lives in mine too. It is still shocking to look at the memorial we have created for our children. Our children's names wth a death date. It isn't something to comprehend. Sometimes, it isn't something we feel we can bear. I wish you Peace and Love and Hope Jennifer.
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Jennifer Smith
Jennifer Smith
Happy 3rd year in heaven my love.
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