Rusty was my son andI loved him very much. Unfortunately, I loved cocaine more. I was never able to realize a clean and sober life until he passed away. I always tried to do the very best for Rusty and his sister Hailey (who is 17 and doing very well.) But I am a drug addict and alcoholic and have been since my kids were born. I passed this awful disease onto my son -- he did not have a chance. I was blind in my own addiction and missed all the signs and was unable to save my own son from his addiction. I am fortunate to have had a son like Rusty; he was afathers dream. He was a natural born athlete and could play any sport to the highest level. I coached Rusty's football team forthree years. His 5th, 6th, and 7th grade teams. I was so proud of him -- he never quit or gave up on anything. A quality and trait I did not have until he died. Rusty never used foul language towards his family and never raised his hand or was disrespectful to us. Like I said, he was the perfect son. If you met Rusty you would have remembered him. Rustywas smart, charming, and very good looking. Always shook your hand like a man and looked you in the eye when he spoke with you. He was also avery spiritual person. He loved God very much. If you're reading this, you must be thinking, "What went wrong in Rusty's life?" He had it all -- including a drug and alcohol addiction. When Rusty first tried drugs he was hooked right from the beginning. He went into treatment for the second time on April 18, 2005. I went into treatment for the fourth time on May 8, 2005. He did really well in treatment and seemed to be doing ok. Rusty lasted 89 days clean before he tried cocaine for the last time. On July 7, 2005 I went into my garage to start my bike for work and found Rusty dead on the floor. He died from an accidental cocaine overdose. I can not describe the agony and pain I felt and still feel to this day. My son died from my addiction. He was special, hewas going to be somebody -- he was going to make a difference in the world. God took him on that fateful day and Rusty is a drug addict no more. He is in peace and love with his maker. As a result of Rusty's death we started a teen and young adult drug and alcohol support group called Rusty's House. To this date we have helped numerous families guide there kids into rehab and help the parents get through the awful grip of teenage addiction. Rusty is making a difference in the world - he is somebody. My son, who I love and cherish and I am so grateful that I had 18 years of my life spent with, was someone so special. My son. Rusty James Marvin.