In memory of Gabriel John Miller
Created by Family Of Gabriel John Miller
Gabriel John Miller
My son, Gabriel, was a beautiful person. He was talented, artistic, loving, and passionate. He was a really good friend to me, and not just a son -- de was a good friend to everyone.
He would sit and talk for hours to a hurting person. He always had good advice for them though he couldn't really get his own advice turned back into himself. He had self-esteem issues, and nothing I could do or say seemed to help much. I guess he just thought that I was looking with eyes of Love and not seeing the truth --but IDID see the truth. Sure he made some stupid choices -- he tried some things that he should never have even touched. Things that led to a horrible addiction. He followed his passions, rather than his head, but he was a beautiful person.
At his funeral I realized that I wasn't the only one who saw these beautiful traits. Many of his friends told meawesome stories of how Gabriel was there for them, when they needed someone,how he would make them smile, encourage them or even pull the passion out of them by making them mad sometimes -- anything to drag them out of their apathy. A lot of young people heard his music and were inspired. His stage charisma drew life out of people, out into the open. Gabriel saw things differently than we see them. He marched to the beat of a different drummer. One time, after Gabriel had drawn a really cute picture of my Mom and step-dad, my Mom said, "Gabriel sees people the way they WANT to be seen." And that was Gabriel.
Now... the world called Gabriel an addict, but he wasn't.He was a beautiful person, who just happened to be battling a horrible addiction. The name, "Gabriel" means messenger of God and Gabriel has a message for this world: Addicts are not the scum of the earth...they are beautiful people who NEED HELP. They may not admit that they need help, but they do. Gabriel kept telling me that he was going to make it on his own and he almost did, but then the relapse got him. I guess his tolerance was down and he took too much. I wish I had tried harder to get him into rehab.
I miss my Gabriel so much. Every day, every hour. I know Gabriel loved the Lord and I believe in the afterlife, and I totally believe that Gabriel is in a better place, and no longer tormentedby addiction. I just wish he had been able to win this battle on this earth, and be with me.
He would sit and talk for hours to a hurting person. He always had good advice for them though he couldn't really get his own advice turned back into himself. He had self-esteem issues, and nothing I could do or say seemed to help much. I guess he just thought that I was looking with eyes of Love and not seeing the truth --but IDID see the truth. Sure he made some stupid choices -- he tried some things that he should never have even touched. Things that led to a horrible addiction. He followed his passions, rather than his head, but he was a beautiful person.
At his funeral I realized that I wasn't the only one who saw these beautiful traits. Many of his friends told meawesome stories of how Gabriel was there for them, when they needed someone,how he would make them smile, encourage them or even pull the passion out of them by making them mad sometimes -- anything to drag them out of their apathy. A lot of young people heard his music and were inspired. His stage charisma drew life out of people, out into the open. Gabriel saw things differently than we see them. He marched to the beat of a different drummer. One time, after Gabriel had drawn a really cute picture of my Mom and step-dad, my Mom said, "Gabriel sees people the way they WANT to be seen." And that was Gabriel.
Now... the world called Gabriel an addict, but he wasn't.He was a beautiful person, who just happened to be battling a horrible addiction. The name, "Gabriel" means messenger of God and Gabriel has a message for this world: Addicts are not the scum of the earth...they are beautiful people who NEED HELP. They may not admit that they need help, but they do. Gabriel kept telling me that he was going to make it on his own and he almost did, but then the relapse got him. I guess his tolerance was down and he took too much. I wish I had tried harder to get him into rehab.
I miss my Gabriel so much. Every day, every hour. I know Gabriel loved the Lord and I believe in the afterlife, and I totally believe that Gabriel is in a better place, and no longer tormentedby addiction. I just wish he had been able to win this battle on this earth, and be with me.
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Comments
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Jennifer Smith
Jennifer Smith
I am so sorry for the loss of your son Gabriel. I also lost my son due to a oxycontin and methadone overdose. God sure takes the best I believe. God bless you and your family. Jennifer [Billy Wilson's mom].
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Nick Randles
Nick Randles
I had the great honor of being the last drummer that ever played with Gabe. A couple of years ago I was contacted by his band "The Requiem" to come and audition for them. Being a huge fan of his former projects, I quickly said "Hell yes!" I ended up getting the position and formed a bond with Gabe very quickly and even though he is no longer with us, that bond remains to this day. There is not a day that goes by I do not think of him. It is Thanksgiving now and I am thinin
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Kami M
Kami M
I am so sorry about your son. You are so right, the majority of our society treats drug addicts like scum. "Alcoholics" are treated better than someone fighting a meth, heroin, methadone, etc. addiction. They may be the best person in the world, but once they are labeled and judged the perception changes. It makes me sick. Time for the world to wake up and see how serious these addictions are!!! RIP, Gabriel.
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Elaine David's Mama
Elaine David's Mama
I watch often for the memorials and I see how quickly new ones are added. I am so sorry for your loss and the world's loss. My son was also addicted to prescription pain killers and methadone. I also lost my son in 2006 and your son was about the same age as mine. Both our boys had Biblical names and I am sure they are both in the presence of the Saviour right now. Please go to HARMD.org to sign a petition to put tougher restrictions on Methadone.
Phil. 4:19
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Tracy Schlax
Tracy Schlax
My condolences on the loss of your son. I was touched by your words:
"Addicts are not the scum of the earth...they are beautiful people who NEED HELP."
I lost my brother six yrs ago and his story is similar. I wanted to share a website created by Bob Grahm to memorialize his sister who died from an overdose. It's www.ourwall.net
My brother is Row 7 #44.
God Bless you on this journey.
Love,
Tracy
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Jerry Hernandez
Jerry Hernandez
Another angel. Gabriel means "strength of GOD" --vigor,courage,authority!May the courage of a passing soul, live on in Heaven. My prayers are with you!
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Melanie Tobiasson
Melanie Tobiasson
I am so very sorry for your loss. My brother was also an addict. He had "beat" his addiction, but still lost the battle when he took his own life on 10/31/99. Like your Gabriel, Mike was a wonderful, good person who just could not win the battle on Earth. I pray that you find some peace. There are many of us who care and you are welcome to contact me any time.
Take good care,
Melanie
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