The memory of an old neighbor is where the road started. A time when hearing the word "pot" did not scare me. I had known that my brother smoked a little, but I had no idea the true effect of a gateway drug.
Adam is the kind of person that anyone grows to love. No exceptions. If you were to spend just a couple of minutes of your time with him, you couldn't help but be drawn to his character. A mountain man is what I call him. He loved the outdoors and was pursuing the mountain life. He has always been a huge hero to me. His ability to just take things as they are, make the best of them, and keep on keeping on.
An outdoor program called Four Circles gave Adam tremendous help in my senior year. He spent around 100 days or so there until his confidence was built up enough. Like many others, the feeling of being clean was that of a good feeling. This feeling revealed his true strengths and almost like another side of him.
I have so many memories of us hanging out just before he took the trip to the other side. It's almost a slap in the face that screams at you, "Everything happens for a reason!" You may think, how clich; I am a strong believer that everything does happen for a reason. We had never been as close as we were the months before. We had never spent this much time together just cutting up and having fun. We were hanging out with friends, going camping, talking and being closer than ever.
His "friends" led to his passing. With their social status and wild life presence, I'm sure it was hard to resist jus that one time. That one time that would turn into too often again. Every now and then he would say. Either way, I love the mountain man named Adam Haggard. My brother of 20 years. My brother for a lifetime.
Each day is a gift from the higher power and I am thankful for every. I can only push on carrying the feeling I have with me. I have a feeling of my brother's presence every day. His reactions to the things we are doing on this side. I know I will be with him when the day comes and this alone gives me strength to keep going. I will honor him with my life and be certified as a Wilderness First Responder saving as many lives as possible. I will always be his "lil brother" as he called me all the time. Always and forever. A mountain man jr. to follow the footsteps of his brother.
My brother of 20 years. You are everything a brother could need. You are everything a father and mother would wish for and you are all that a friend is. God will bless your kind soul and we will rest easy knowing what holy people surround you. I pray that you help walk with us through our lifetime and your presence is felt everywhere we go.
Dear Adam, my brother of 20 years, never shall you bow your head. We have lived by your side and have experienced what great things one is capable of. I wish that we brothers could have camped together for a lifetime and passed together by a river on a mountain. I will always have you brother everywhere I go. I will camp with you until my day's end and fulfill the life of a mountain man. We can only miss you for now but live knowing that the day is yet to come when we will all be together. With your strength I fear nothing in my path. I will walk the hills of this world and hike the mountains with you by my side.
I am so thankful to have you as my brother. Until the day we meet again, you must know what happiness you leave with us. I will always be your little brother and look up to you. You will hold your head high while trekking the mountains. You will hold your head high while trekking through the valley. God bless your soul my kind brother.
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