I finally had enough.

My drug history started at age 12 - drinking, smoking, THC,  angel dust and taking benzo's. Next thing I knew I was flying from Logan airport to Kennedy in NYC to buy vials of crack.

I thought I had the world in the palms of my hand. What a joke. I fell in love with heroin and fentanyl at 20 years old and that was it. I was off and ruining! (My life that is.)

It wasn't until I went to jail for a year that I was able to clear up mentally, physically and emotionally. It was then at age 37 I realized I was a slave to the drug and society. I hated the fact I lost my freedom while incarcerated. I went into treatment after my release but I struggled for another 10 years.

But today I have been clean for 10 years and I love it. I know who I am, what I like and enjoy, I love to love another person and not a substance. I love being able to use the bathroom or take a shower when I please and not when a Co tells me when I can. It didn't come easy.

I cried, it was painful at times. I got lonely day and night, even when in a room filled with people. but that was part of the healing process. I had to go through that pain to get to the joy I have today. Not everyday is a good day, shit happens,but I know how to deal with things without leaning on a drug to get me through.

I had enough - enough of the pain, loneliness, sadness, tears and fake smiles. I can go on with what I had enough of but I would rather share that it was all worth it. Life clean and sober is good. I enjoy waking up and taking on the day before it takes on me.

I wish everyone the best on your journeys. Don't give up, keep at it no matter what. Do what ever works for you. trust me you will like the person you are and become when you put down the drugs. Peace and blessings always.