Sick and tired of being sick and tired.
To start off, I grew up in a good home. I was always picked on in school, and therefore I was sometimes alone. I was 17 when I first tried marijuana, what the cool kids did. experimenting with, and that's when my codependency to drugs tipped off. I started lying, manipulating, cheating, just to find some money for drugs. and take the car and take the car keys from my dad just so I can get high. Then it escalated to crack cocaine and that's when I really decelerated a spiral of guilt and denial. I went to a drug rehab for 4 months, when I got out I just started drinking, and didn't realize that any mood or mind altering substances will effect my judgement on any drug commitments I had.
I started smoking and using coke again and realized I had a problem. For the first time in my 7 years of using I hit a bottom. When I saw a picture at the time, of my 1 year old son. All I had was his pic in my wallet as I was standing outside a dope hole. The next day I got shipped out to a drug rehab for the second time. This time around I was more humble and more receptive to any help accommodated to me. I did another 4 months and got out. The first thing I did was go to an N.A meeting. I got a sponsor, started working steps and have an amazing sponsor family with me.
27 months later here I stand, the man I was always set out to be. I am finding myself today. I'm a great dad to my 3 year old son. I'm a responsible person today. I have a job, I have some money in the bank, and I have my life back thanks to narcotics anonymous. I am the great son and father today. My clean date is November 18, 2010 and I'm so proud of it. If I can do it you definetely can. I was a crack head bum who walked the streets at night, and was always dirty and hungry. Now I'm a smart and friendly human being always looking to do the next right thing. I speak at mental hospitals for kids and drug rehibilation centers. I give back what was freely given to me, the gift of life. And for that my friend, I am forever grateful.
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