On The Floor / Dead ? Alive ?
I don't miss being on the floor looking for pieces of bullshit to put in a pipe! I don't miss crawling on the floor like a begging dog looking for crack. Every day, every moment now is a gift to me. I don't miss feeding something that was killing me, and my family. I don't miss being broke, driving around a junky car, cause all my money was used to feed a stupidity! I enjoy my life now, I enjoy all the little things like my coffee in the morning, planing my day without worry, and fear of who's following me, or waiting to be arrested for chasing insanity. I no longer have fear of hearing things that aren't there, like agents that are getting ready to bust my door down, or people who are talking about me. Please give yourself and your family the gift of sobriety. You have much living to do, your worth it. Please get help, stay still for a while, give your body and mind a long break, and just see what life is like for a little while. Show someone close to you that you love them, by taking care of yourself even if it's just a little while, at least try. I lost allot of things many many times all for drugs, I had people, family around me I wouldn't listen. I would be a millionaire today had I listened, instead I'm struggling but that's perfectly fine, I feel so much better, every day.I lost things like my personality, my wild sense of humor, my quick sense of wit, my ability to earn a living to a degree. I lost allot of family members that I loved dearly, that I'll never get the chance to say how sorry I really was for all the pain and worry I gave them in my addiction. I hope that you can use this and read it all the time before you go and pickup next time, read this and go see a friend, a family member, or go see a movie, or grab something to eat, if you need to go to a meeting. For me meetings just reminded me of something I wanted to forget, and not relive, for some it helps. Love yourself no one else will. Please live your life, and rethink how and what your going to do with your life, using should not be your goal today. Take care.
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