I Want to be Free Again
I retired and wondered why I didn't feel free.? I was addicted to anxiety medication for ten years and realized I had to schedule my vacations and my life around my prescription medication.? I wanted to be free.? I decided to stop taking my medication several times but I got so sick I had to take it in order to go to work.
After I retired I was determined to feel free like I use to. I didn't tell my doctor nor my family what I was going to do because I didn't want any negative feed back like, "You really need your medicine."? I took my last pill on October 5, 2010 and I was so sick I thought I was going to die.? My pressure went up, I saw things that really weren't there, I could not eat or sleep.? However, I was determined to reach my goal of feeling free again!
I thought after two weeks I would feel better, but the withdrawal only got worse.? After a month I got to the point I could not take it anymore and I started to pray.? I was feeling awful and at the same time I was proud of myself because I knew once it was over I would feel free again.
It actually took six months before I tasted food, my arms/legs stopped jerking uncontrollably, I could reason slightly.? Then the sky was more beautiful than ever, I was more confident than ever, I started going to church again and now I am free again.
I will never go back to the way I use to be.
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