No Care In The World
I was 20 when i and my ex. girlfriend/best friend introduced me to constant drug abuse. I thought that she cared about me, i thought that she was a true friend...thats why i thought she would never steer me wrong. I admit that it wasn't completely her fault...it was mine also. I was looking for an escape, a way to escape my responsibilities, escape drama in my live, but most importantly a part of me just didn't want to be alive. I never fit in. Everyone always assumed that i was happy because over the years i was able to pretend to please others. But when i found a way to get ahold of a solution...i decided " well why not? '. I abused weed, pain killers, anxiety medicine, coke, X, and even some pills i can't even remember the names to now. When i did it...i thought it was fun. It made me feel good, brave, even boosted my self esteem. What i didn't realize is that i was getting attention from mostly men and it was because they saw an easy way for sex. I won't explain the whole story because that would take WAY too long...i decided to quit when i realized that i was sitting in a old, musty house surrounded by scary drugged out people ( mostly men )...doing drugs with them and i just could not believe that i would put myself in that type of surrounding or even anywhere near a bad situation like that. I realized how much the drugs were changing my entire personality. The truth is...not only does drugs cause SO much harm to your body it changes who you are...yea...you might feel better for the moment but look at all the bad its doing. I am 22 now and i haven't done drugs for about a year and a half. I stopped cold turkey...i stopped drugs, smoking (tobacco and weed), i now workout regularly. I knew i could quit because i wanted to, i didn't wanna end up being those people who beg for change to get drugs or sell my body to get money for my addiction. Shortly after i quit drugs... i was told that i have two anuerysms. One on my heart and the other on my spleen. They have no idea what caused them...but i do. I am now limited on what i can do. Not only that but 11 1/2 yrs is now shaved off my life because of my heart problem. In not even a whole year...i destroyed 11 1/2.... think when you do drugs. Please. Please. Stop before its too late.
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