Well let me say this i was on crack and alcohol. There was nothing I would'nt do for it .I was almost raped more than once by the same guy,I still didnt stop. Then I almost died, I still didnt stop.Then I got married to the love of my life. I used to ask him to lock me in the house so i could not get out .I wasn't thanking i would'nt ?get out of the house if it cought on fire.But one day my husband said we were going to move, so we did.We moved out of town with his dad .There I didnt know anyone, my husband got a job and every thing began to change. He began to see other women, and sometimes he didn't come home.So i began to pray, I mean i stayed on my knees crying and asking God why? But you know what the world says if you rip what you sow,he got me though it all,and i thank him every day of my life.i started doing drugs in 1983.god deliver me and 1996.I have been though hell my son died in 1999. My grandson died in 2000.I just divorced 3/21/2013.and god still holds my hands..thanks my god savor he do just what he say he will do,forgive my spelling.love you all.just wanted to say he love each and everyone of you to.